He's back!

Well, I'm too lazy to post pictures right now, but HE'S BACK! 377 days too late too me. so he wasn't the last flight, there was one after him, but pretty close. It's terrible that the Army doesn't know how to get guys back in time. I know the Army is never fair, but it's kind of ridiculous. He's back and then went right back to work while others enjoyed a lovely DONSA. Oh and of course he doesn't get leave until the 28th now instead of the 23rd, why? Because they got back later. Just stupid.

Anyway, I shouldn't complain, he's home, he's here and everything is awesome. Abigail took to Vinnie awesomely. The homecoming was very late and Abigail was super tired, but she didn't cry at all when she saw Vinnie and she let him hold her no problem.

He's been very hands on with her and she adores him. It is really great. I'm hoping we will get some time to relax, we are going to Hawaii so that should help, but I can't believe he is already back at work :/

I can't wait to get our pictures! I took "deployment" pictures with a professional photographer and also had homecoming pictures with another photographer, FOR FREE! I am really excited to see the pictures since I only got a couple taken with my iPhone.

Well, I'm going to go rest now and get ready for Vinnie to be home in maybe 3 hours...:/ 4pm, retarded, ok I said I was done complaining,
byebye for now!

OMG come home already!

I am seriously losing my mind! I don't think i can function anymore. Why does Vinnie have to be last? I don't get it, and I'm not even exaggerating.

My mind is just all junked up and I can't think clearly anymore. I have exhausted my list of things to do and now I have nothing to do today while I sit and wait. I have super cleaned 3 or 4 times now, I don't think there is anything left to clean.

I was really hoping I wouldn't be alone in the bed tonight, but it looks like it will be at least one more night. I got a call from Vin this morning, so I'm guessing that means at least another day :(

BTW the Donut of Misery can kiss my butt. You know how many times I've changed the date on that thing? Ugh, now it just makes me angry when I see the 376 number.

Well, I don't have much else to say except I can't wait until I can stop complaining and post something happy. Soon, pretty soon I hope.

Getting ready

Well, I haven't gotten any official word, but I also didn't get a phone call from Vin which is actually a good sign, he may be on the move.

So, I decided to go clean crazy today and I got a lot done, this house looks awesome. I had to flea bomb it again, I hope it works this time, I hate fleas and they love me. If they don't leave me alone this time I'm going to have to get a pro.

Well, I'm actually pretty tired, I was going to write more, but I still need to eat din din. Ok bye bye!

53 weeks

This is starting to get cruel. I do realize of course things could be worse, and people have had it worse (3 month extension for example, my brother being one of those), but usually people are aware of the 3 month extension well in advance and you just accept it. Well, today mark 53 weeks since my husband left for Afghanistan. Is it wrong to be jealous and even slightly angry everytime I get an email about homecomings and see names of people who left well after my husband? He left with the first main body and I cannot believe he is still there, they've had like 9 main bodies come home already. People who only did half deployments are already coming home and people who left in August are already home.

I am jealous and this blog is mostly a jealous rage!

And no offense to single soldiers, but shouldn't soldiers with wives and children come home first? I mean, my husband left one month before Abigail was born and came home for R and R when she was a month old for 2 weeks. I found out some guys got to come home for the birth for E-leave and THEN also got 2 weeks R and R later on, ugh. Last time he saw her she was just a little tiny baby and now she is ready to walk and I'm trying to keep her from walking so he can see it, and then he gets pushed back... It has been 10 months since I have even seen my husband, other guys haven't even deployed for that long AND they got R and R, AND they are coming home before my hubby! Those guys should have to wait, sorry, I know I shouldn't say that, but this is a blog and I'm allowed to write how I feel, right?

Anyway, I'm hoping that if I complain and just expect him not to be home for awhile, then I will finally get the call that he's coming.

Well, I am done for now, maybe I'll get the call tonight?
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R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Ok, so I'm not even one to talk because I know I didn't think about these things while I was pregnant, but I have become aware and now I have to make other aware. If you are pregnant, or have had a healthy baby, please cherish it! There are people around you all the time who either cannot get pregnant or are angel mommies, they would give anything to be in your shoes no mater how tough it is. I'm not direction this at one person in particular, it's just been bothering me. I see these shows on TV and I can't believe some of these people! The worst show, which i don't watch, but I know it's out there is called something like, "Pregnant and..." and that is usually followed by "in jail" or "on meth" Should these shows even be on TV? I understand it's reality and blah blah blah, but it's horrific. There are people out there who do everything perfect by the book and lose their babies and then you have these pyschos who have perfectly fine babies, maybe they have some withdrawl but the babies survive and these people get to be mothers! Another show is "I didn't know I was pregnant" I have to admit, when i first saw the show I thought it was funny, I mean how can you not know you're pregnant? I guess I "might" understand some of the very obese girls or the lady who had her tubes tied, but otherwise come on, give me a break. Anyway, 9 out of 10 times these ladies have perfectly healthy babies, and they didn't even know they were pregnant. It's ridiculous, I mean, all the worrying and careful measures that pregnant women go through and some of those women tragically lose their precious babies and these people smoke, drink, do whatever they want and oh whoops I just had a healthy baby! Other shows about multiples also make me angry, not at the people, just the situation in general, and I know the ones on TV are the ones who have happy ending and tragically most multiple births don't turn out that way, but these people have 6 babies and they all end up fine?!? Come on! Finally, my guilty pleasure, 16 and pregnant, I'm back and forth on this show, but usually I'm ok with it. Today Abigail decided to put on MTV and I was too lazy to change it and they had a marathon of sorts. Well, I saw one episode from last season that now almost makes me want to puke, I mean before when I saw this part in the episode I just kept it as a mental note (I was pregnant at the time) I was telling my friend about it when we were talking about her baby girl not too long ago, but actually seeing the episode again made me want to cry. Nothing the parents did or anything, just the situation, she went in fr her 39 week checkup and the doctor was going through those same ol questions that they go through those last few weeks and she asked "and baby's moving good?" and she said something like "not as much as before" and the doctor said "the baby should keep about the same level of activity all the way to birth" so she had her hooked up to a NST and another doctor came in and said he didn't like the way the baby was responding so they were going to induce labor. She ended up having a c-section and the baby actually ended up having a genetic liver problem (not sure if it's related) but anyway, why does that whole scene make me ill? My friend knows why, and I'll just leave it there, but it's similar to the reasons that the shows where babies are delivered before 37 weeks make my stomach hurt, I just get this ache in my heart, not for me but for my friend and all others who lost their beautiful babies. Man, this post is a debbie downer, but I had to get it out. I'm debating whether or not to put it on facebook to remind all my preggo friends out there to suck it up and cherish it. grrrr.....

-Friend, I really hope this post is not upsetting, I have no intention of upsetting you or make you questions yourself, your doctors or anything, I know you can't go back or change anything that happened, just know I think about you, your husband and your little one everyday and well, i just want you to know that.