Christmas

Hello,

Thought I'd do some sort of a post about Christmas. It went well, had some fun, but totally drained me.
Well, I was going to upload pictures, but it doesn't want to work so maybe next time.

Abigail got a vacuum and a kitchen and a play tent. Those are by far her favorite toys.

no news on the baby front yet. We shall see. I am still stressed about future names, I know I'm crazy, but nothing I can do about that.

Vinnie really likes the name Jack, as time goes on I like it less and less. I just don't see it as very formal and it seems too simple. I don't know..I mean it's alright, but I love calling Abigail by her full name and Jack just doesn't seem full. I like the name Benjamin, but maybe not enough for a first name. I like the name Alexander, but not Alex. I'm starting the like the name William, will for a nickname. Thing is, Jack doesn't bother me as a nickname, just not a given name. Not really a fan of Jackson, seems too trendy. any opinions out there?

Girls, well, I have a lot of first names. I really am 98% sure I would go with Elizabeth, it's my sister's middle name and my g-g-ma's so that's be nice. Middle name, not sure. My usual naming technique is my own first name and family middle name, but I mess that up with Elizabeth, but I like it as a first name. I don't want to use my other names like Caroline as a middle name, although maybe it'd be better as a middle name since I don't like Carol for a nn that people might give her. Elizabeth Caroline? hmm Also, as I mentioned before, trying to use a form of Mildred somewhere. I could use just Millie, doesn't sound right for a middle name though. I know there are other names that get you Mille as a nickname, Amelia being one of theme. Well, I guess I'll go for now, hopefully I'll be able to put some pics up later.

Names

So, God-willing I hope to have more babies in the future. I am also OCD about baby names. I feel the need to post about it here since I've been spending countless hours trying to find the perfect names. So, to save time I'm just gonna copy an email I sent to Vinnie:

Boy names

I like Jack, but I'm not a super huge fan. I think it bothers me that Jack is actually a nickname for John, although I realize nowadays it can stand alone, it is also becoming very popular. I might get frustrated if/when other people ask what Jack is short for and I have to say he's just Jack, I think that might make me sad. Now we could pick John, which is a cute name, not a huge favorite, but it could be cute and we could call him jack and he could also have more options with his name if he wanted. We could also call him John John. Would it be weird to have a John and Abigail? I don't think people would notice. I always liked Benjamin, it has always been on my baby names lists (except the ones with only A's and E's) but it seemed like a random name, but now I know my dad’s grandpa’s name was Benjamin and now I’m excited. I really super like it,


Middle names: Christopher, Kevin, John, Jack, Benjamin


1. Eli: (I still LOVE eli) Eli Christopher Eli Kevin, Eli Christopher Kevin, Eli Benjamin
2. Benjamin: Benjamin Christopher, Benjamin Jack
3. John "Jack" Christopher, John “Jack” Benjamin, John “Jack” Christopher
4. Jack: Jack Christopher, Jack Benjamin



Girls names

Middle names: Elizabeth, Alice, Margaret, Katharine, Millie, Milly

Elizabeth Jean, Elizabeth Margaret, Elizabeth Katharine (Ellie or Lily), Elizabeth Millie?

Caroline

I think I like Elizabeth Katharine best, but I’d like to work on more names since I don’t think you like it.I really need to work on some more names. You why I obsess? It's because I don't have any official names yet. I really need to work on girls names now.

I know Caroline Elizabeth sounds kinda nice, but I really want elizabeth as a first name (it is my sisters's middle name and my g-grandma's middle name. I also want to try to work some form of mildred into a middle name. Vinnie's grandma's name was Mildred and neither of us like that name but would really like to honor his grandma by using it in some way. I know there are a lot of names that have Millie as a nickname which is what we may do since she was known as millie.

Yep

So I guess I'm not so good with titles. Anyway, not too much going on. Went to an FRG meeting tonight. It was kinda pointless, nothing going on. I guess it is kinda pointless compared to the ones before deployment. Anyway, looks like the FRG leader is leaving next month, the co-leader will be taking her spot and so her spot will be open. I decided to go ahead and email her letting her know i'd be interested. I mean, I'm not working and I finally know some of the ladies and kinda feel like part of the in-crowd, so why not. At least it's co leader and not leader leader, bc I'm not sure I'd be able to answer people's questions, I don't know much about the Army still, but I'll just relay those questions to my buddy Priscilla who knows everything about the Army, she can be my co-leader. Well, we'll see how that pans out, someone may have already put their name in at the meeting so who knows.

Today was pretty lazy, boring, didn't do anything. When i got back from this meeting I was starving and Abigail was tired and when she gets tired she turns self-destructive, falling over, running into things, etc, so I thought I might be able to get some food in before taking her to bed, but she had other plans. Usually I give her a bath but we skipped it tonight and now she has woken up about an hour after i put her to bed. Hopefully she'll go back to bed, if not, it could be a long night. I shouldn't mess with her routine, but I was hungry! Then Vinnie fell asleep so it's just me again. Well, Apprentice finale is on tonight, so i'm pretty pumped. This is the first time I have ever watched that show, it's not bad, kinda funny, Trump is a funny dude.

Vinnie mentioned something about seeing if there are any jobs in Ft. Knox. I'm not going to put too many eggs in that basket. I need to get his approval on our Christmas card thingy and calendar, and i want to ask him about the career course, but never seem to get a chance.

Also been trying to talk to someone about babies, but no one is interested. It's understandable in some people's cases but others like my sister drive me nuts. If I even mention babies she tells my mom I'm having a baby. No, not having one, just want to talk about having one maybe, someday again. Maybe I'll start talking babies on here, but I don't want to drive away my only reader!

Ok, this was really boring,but oh well. Have a good night. Oh and the Colts finally won

Presents

Ugh, so I have never been good at being able to tell people what I want for Christmas. Mostly because I am not a "wanty" person or what I really want they can't give me or it loses it's charm if I tell them. This drives Vinnie nuts because he is opposite. I think he constantly keeps a list of things he wants and so he cranks out a christmas list very fast. I know then he will get what he wants, but it takes the fun out of it to be honest. I like to show him that I know him well enough to get him something he likes, but oh well I guess, not this year, I have a list. Tonight I have been trying to make a list but it is not easy. It seems dumb to tell someone what to get you. I might as well just go get it myself, it's coming out of the same account. Anyway, I'm working on a list, but I knoe i'm just putting stuff on there that I don't need, so it just seems dumb and a waste of money. In the past I have gotten things like an iTunes gift card, which only he has used once (that was 3 years ago), a portable dvd player (but I have a laptop) so I haven't used that and it is also from 3 years ago, I feel really bad about it. Last year he also got me a lot of charms for my bracelets and that was really nice. Well, I hate stressing about these things, it's just so dumb.

Charlie gets a new home! And Update

So it looks like Charlie will be getting a new home! Yay! I'm so happy for him. I hope Yoda can find a new home soon. I know they are being loved and well taken care of and I'm so excited for them. They are going to have great lives now.

Nothing else really going on. We put up Christmas lights. It's looking quite Clark Griswold out there but that's fine with me. I'll have to take a picture sometime. The inside looks nice too. Already picked up a couple presents for Abigail. I'm so glad vinnie is home this Christmas. We are trying to think of traditions we'd like to have in our little family. We have some ideas. I'll share them later since I'm on my phone right now and just don't feel like typing it all out. Well. I'm gettin tired I'll add more later. Just thought I'd do a little update.

***Ok, I'm back, doing a no-no which is bringing the computer in bed with me. I know it is the culprit to my insomnia, but so be it. Anyway, my mom was here for a visit which was super fun. We had a good time, went winter shopping, yay! I didn't have ANY winter clothes being I was at least 40lbs heavier last year this time. Got to see a couple movies while she was here and went out to eat with the hubster for my birthday, so good times. My dad is also coming for a visit next week, so I'm excited about that as well.

So, going to another coffee Tuesday. Look at me, miss social, although I wouldn't go that far. I just am not naturally social unless someone opens up to me first and even then it may not work. There are some people I just naturally connect with, and other well, not so much, but I'm sure that's true for everyone.

As I mentioned Vinnie and I got to see a couple movies, including the new Harry Potter. Now neither of us have ever been Harry Potter enthusiasts or anything, not that we didn't like it, just never got into it. Anyway, thanks to Harry Potter weekend on ABC family and our DVR we are now officially caught up. To tell you the truth, I saw the Half-Blood Prince in theaters after only reading the first book (class assignment) and really I didn't miss much, besides Harry getting beat up and about 6 defense against the dark arts professors. Seriously, does Dumbledore (don't know if i spelled that right) not know how to hire someone of quality for that job or what?

Still wanting to join a gym, still debating. I'm guessing it won't happen because I'm too big a wuss to ask 100 times if I can. Just don't know. I'd like to get back into decent shape before we think about trying for baby #2.

Oh yeah, Christmas traditions. Well, so far the Christmas lights are a go. We want to get a pickle ornament and hide it in the tree. We are going to go to church Christmas eve, I just couldn't imagine not going. I think I'm going to make some cookies and possibly cupcakes for Christmas. Have to read night before Christmas. Christmas morning I think I will do cinnamon buns and possibly some biscuits and gravy. Not sure what else. Probably do a Christmas dinner. Need to watch all the Christmas movies at some point. We wanted to make going to Trans-Siberian orchestra a tradition, but apparently they were here like November 13th. So, oh well.

alright, well if anyone has any suggestions let me know.

Feeling terrible

So, I don't feel that good and on top of it I'm not getting any sleep. Also, I just feel like I just suck lately. I mean, my dinners are not very good. I constantly struggle between trying to make something fast , healthy and not crazy expensive. I always buy too much and am not good at the whole using leftovers to make something the next day. I'm probably just too lazy to put any real effort into my "job" and that's mostly the problem, but I don't know. I know I just complain a lot and that just makes me feel worse. Especially when my husband gets angry and tells me to stop whining all the time and just fix the problem. Don't sleep? Go to the doctor. Yeah, i get it, i need to go, I just feel so blah I don't have the motivation. I know I make an excuse for everything and it drives Vinnie crazy. I probably do need to go to the doctor to get this insomnia thing figured out. I know i also need to go to the dentist bc my teeth are constantly killing me.

My house is a mess bc I'm just too tired to get anything done and that just makes me more depressed. I don't get out of the house (again I know that's my own fault) but where am i supposed to go and again I don't have the motivation. That's why I was so pumped to join a gym but now I'm just back to blah about it because Vinnie wasn't really for it. I don't even really want to anymore. Also, I don't do anything for myself, ever, I mean I don't get my hair cut, or dyed, I don't get my nails done or go buy new clothes or things I want. All I wanted was to go to the gym so I don't gain my weight back and so I can hopefully start to feel better. I will talk to my mom and she always understands exactly what i'm talking about, maybe because she has been there, but I can never explain it to Vinnie. Ugh, I love my husband and he is awesome, we just have to find a way to get on the same page sometimes, and again it doesn't help that he constantly tells me he wishes he could just stay home and hang out with Abigail all day... yeah ok :( it's mostly on me because I don't take care of myself and just get things done that need to be done.

I don't know when I became this way, I mean I got everything done in college, then once I moved out here I just have made excuse after excuse for everything and it makes me feel like a terrible and lazy human being all the time. I know the easy solution is well then do something (which is what vinnie says) but I can't seem to do ANYTHING. I don't know why but I think if I were home in a familiar place and surrounded by my family things would be different. Well, that's all for now, going to try to "sleep" again...

I'm back...

I am really terrible at this blog thing, I'm not going to win any super blog awards, but it's really just easy to type than write in my journal, so what ev. Anyway, not much has been going on. Just trying to switch gears and do the Army wife thing now, we'll see how that all works out, don't know if I should try getting involved in the FRG, it's not really my thing, but I suppose it's expected of me. Went to a coffee tonight, I'm thinking everyone there was either a leader or co-leader or something and I'm a nothin and felt dumb bc I had never even been to a coffee before, but hey I've only been invited twice in 2 years so give me a break. Anyway, it was nice, so we'll see what happens with that. Not feeling to good tonight, hope I don't get sick, but I took some ibprofen and I"m feeling much better now, should have had some before I went to the coffee.

Oh, we went on this marriage retreat which was awesome and I made a couple new friends, so now I have a 2-1 buddy I can drag around to all this army stuff. Ok, well, probably should go to bed, but won't so nighty night